Tribute to Michelle..... be prepared for another emo post

Was listening to this song the other day on the radio. Its sung by Richard Marx, "Right Here Waiting for You."

Then my thoughts drifted off far far away.... to that person whom I hold so dearly in my heart.

michelle's the one in the middle.

Our first encounter was because of Kendo. Yeah, surprised me too. I didn't notice her back then. It was an afternoon after one Kendo meeting I conducted for new students who wished to join the club. She was late for the meeting, and when everyone left the class, only then did she show up. By that time, I was leaving for home already. Saw her in the corridor. No one else was there. She asked me, "Is this where the Kendo meeting is held?"

I replied curtly with "Meeting's over. Everyone has gone home."

So we left, and didn't exchange another word. However, it was not long until we crossed paths again. She attended the prefects interview, and passed. So she came for a prefect's briefing on duties. I was there, as her senior. She couldn't understand what my friend Mustafa was explaining so she asked me for clarification. That was the day when I first knew her name: Michelle Anne Yoong.

On the 2nd of September 2008 she came to school with her long hair cut shoulder length. I found it to be very attractive, so everytime I saw her I would say that she looks nice. She was very happy to hear that. So from that day before school started we'd sit at the bench in the school compund talking to each other.

On the 13th of October 2008 she had to take her blazer measurement. She dragged me along to go with her, since she's scared of navigating the form 5 block alone. We talked and talked and talked, and it was at that time when I first noticed those EYES. Argh. I can just stare into them all day..... So memukau one. Before leaving school we said goodbye to each other. Since then we say goodbye to each other everyday after school hours ended.

We started messaging...... one hour at least 5 times. =)

Ah yes. We didn't know we had developed feelings for each other until it was too late. I think the first time I fell for her was when she grabbed my hand and squeezed it when she had abdominal cramps due to period pain. Her touch was electric I tell you. I could've melted to the ground then and there.

celebrating her 18th birthday.

Never has someone treated me the way she has done to me. Forever so caring. She planned one super-fantastic surprise for my birthday. She came all the way from her house in Cheras to Sunway (ALONE, which I do not like) just to visit me after class. She would wipe my sweat for me with a towel and put plaster on my blisters after Kendo trainings. Sometimes she would be there at the side of the dojo, watching me keiko. She would gasp everytime I get hit... so cute.

She also knitted a teddy bear ALL BY HERSELF!!! Made from scratch just for me! She spent many nights staying up late and sleeping only two hours for that. I was so touched she'd do something like that for me I nearly cried. Now I put little Michelle (the bear's name) beside me whenever I sleep.

That's little michelle. Love you so much.....

I miss her so much as time passes by. Everytime I close my eyes I see her, as if her perfect image is ingrained on the insides of my eyelids. My life now consists of waiting for the moment to see her again. I cannot stand not being able to see her for more than a week.

I really can't. Which is why I'm studying real hard now, so that I can get a place in either IMU (International Medical University) in BukitJalil or Monash Medical faculty in Sunway. I need AAA for this. If I don't meet the grades, I might not be able to medicine here. I might have to go overseas, and my parents are planning to send me to Australia to do a basic degree. I can't stay away from her. She just stole my heart and then I have to go..... I don't want that to happen.

The more we want to stay close to each other, the more people will attempt to pull us apart. Like her grandfather for instance... He doesn't like me because I'm a Malay. He said to her "You still haven't woken up is it? Don't you know being with people like him is no good? All the other Chinese guys in the world die already is it until you have to go find Malay?"

And her mother as well. She told her "If you two still stay together, and get married, he can get up to four wives! Do you want to share a husband?"

That hurt. A lot. It's not my fault that my religion allows polygamy. Heck, I think that polygamy should be abolished at this era of globalization. And besides, we're not gonna get married now. And I don't wanna have more than one in my life. Please stop generalizing. You barely even know me and you're making assumptions. And you're also upsetting your daughter. She cries in the toilet all alone because of your stinging words.

Nevertheless, I'm not giving up. Sayang if you're reading this I just wanna say I love you..... I won't give up on you ever. Don't be so stressed because of STPM because, as Marcus says in his oh-so-girly-voice, YOU CAN DO IT!!!

This is a book that she gave me on my birthday. It turns out that she has been keeping a diary, and she writes in it after every time we see each other. From day One until now, the story still continues. That's why I could give you the dates just when when we took blazer measurements and when we first met. Its kinda good actually, keeping a love diary... if anything happens to you, like you lose your memory for example, have a read of the book and youwon't miss out on the sweet memories you shared together with your dearly beloved.

P/S: I met her because of Kendo. Another reason why Kendo is such a good influence in my life.

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